samedi 2 août 2008
Vivre pour vivre ou vivre pour mourir
Yesterday I posted the data on the life expectancy, not for emphasizing the best condition for Japanese people but for providing a food for philosophical musing. I did not pay attention at all to this sort of numbers before, but something changed a couple of years ago when I finally realized I am mortal like everybody else. That realization made a big impact on me, changed my perspectives completely. I decided at the time not to live for living sake, but to live for die. In other words, thinking of the end of my life, I had to decide what to do for the rest of my life. According to the data yesterday, I will definitely disappear without a trace from this planet in a little more than 20 years. I'll have to do something I want to do before the time comes.
Through this experience, I can see dying or sick people as this, not the other, side of people, just like ourselves with 'the sickness unto death'. Moreover, daily encounters with people became so precious, 一期一会 "ichigo-ichi-e" in Japanese. Needless to say, every moment of life itself begins to mean a lot to me. To realize we are mortal, as Pascal already mentioned, seems to be central to our existence and changes our way of life.